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Sisters of the Page has been on the web since 2007. We have featured the works of Misti Rainwater-Lites, MK Chavez, Judy Brekke and Craig Sernotti.
SOTP is a place where we promote female writers, artists, and photographers. This is our goal and our emphasis however, from time to time, we will open the page to everyone in order to showcase some of their works.
Please feel free to click on our archive for past works. It is located at the bottom of each page. If you have comments, please post them under the artist's work, General comments may be directed to the editor at midulcevida66@gmail.com.
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We hope you enjoy your visit. Thanks for stopping by.
Juliana Vargas
Editor-Sisters of the Page
SOTP is a place where we promote female writers, artists, and photographers. This is our goal and our emphasis however, from time to time, we will open the page to everyone in order to showcase some of their works.
Please feel free to click on our archive for past works. It is located at the bottom of each page. If you have comments, please post them under the artist's work, General comments may be directed to the editor at midulcevida66@gmail.com.
Abusive and deragatory comments will not be tolerated and will be immediately removed.
We hope you enjoy your visit. Thanks for stopping by.
Juliana Vargas
Editor-Sisters of the Page
Sunday, September 30, 2007
locks of hair by zoe alexandra
I keep having to remind myself
that they are just feelings
that you have them too
even though you can slip yours behind
your long black hair and forget
My hair is short and I cannot tuck secrets
Into the lining of my jacket
If my face is your compass then
You are moving in the wrong direction
I believe in your eyelashes
The soft flutter of one against the other
The way you look at me
But I bet you look at everybody that way
Your hair is electric
Your eyes are smoldering through
My tightly wound string of my confidence
You are the seeing the actual me
You are seeing the authentic me
And I bet you want to wash your hands of it.
Last night I drove through the darkness
Through New Rochelle and New Haven
All the lamplights on the highway looked like constellations
Telling me to run the fuck away
The night before
We were flying down the Boston Turnpike
All the way to Vermont
With my best friend,
I am finally safe
I can finally spill the alphabet soup
Acrid red from my dirty mouth
Not afraid to be unlovable anymore
(if i am then…so what…)
You're from Tempe, Arizona
Where my best friend used to cook up batches of acid
And crack
And heroin
And that's how I know you had to come back
To Connecticut where they loaded you up with
Thorazine and methadone
And you crawled around in some dimly lit basement
And played with bugs.
I only loved you because you were so far from my grasp
I only loved you because I could never touch you
You were magical and I was on a pink cloud
My first week crying
Your hair was above water
Somehow your eyes were still clear pools
Like crystal balls
Like Russian roulette I knew that you'd die
Or I'd die
but I'd never get to sink my fingers into your back
Hold you correctly
And then I did
Felt you there beneath me
Thought I was sinking
Thought if I had you
I wouldn't want you anymore
Your fingers up my cunt
Your crooked fingers in my mouth
Biting down hard
Trying to be quiet
Trying to move like some starlet
From the pages of a glossy magazine
Trying to let you catch me
In all the right lights.
But we're just friends now
We're just friends like you said
And I had to etch it into my hemisphere
Because yours is warmer
Yours is closer to the equator
And I'm out of sunscreen
And I'm feeling lost on this desert landscape
Everything is as barren as my mother's womb
Everything is drying up
My skin is peeling
My lips aren't flower petals anymore.
I won't tell anyone about this
I won't tell anyone except:
God and Jesus and Mary Magdalene
And my best-friend and that girl from Ferry St. that I used to know.
I live my life for a live wire
I lay myself on the telephone line
I wait for you to pick up the receiver
And if you don't I sob into my flannel sheets
It is this tiny inferno that keeps building inside me
It's this little flame
That won't let me fall to ashes
It's you looking at me
Then looking away
Begging me to turn back around
To see if your eyes widen
If a stare like yours could ever burn through mine.
Made in secret
See you tomorrow
Made in secret
See you later
Made in secret
See you Friday
Made in secret
See you whenever
I wish you hadn't made it real,
This poem would be propaganda
If this was 1937 it would be confiscated
By someone in a blue suit
I'd be wearing your red letter
I'd be crying in kitten heels
I'd be cuffed and thrown against a fencepost
I'd think it was all really romantic.
If all feelings are trivial
Than so are yours
If you have any.
I don't play those sick games anymore;
Come here, A little closer, Come here
Get the fuck away from me
Everyone's bleeding
Everyone's bleeding from their lips
And nose and eyes
Everyone's bleeding from their aorta
And their fibroids and their bowels
Just not everyone can see it
But I can feel it
It's internal
I'm taking a turn for the worst.
If you loved my mouth then you'd know
I could tell you things no one else could
Sick things that would make your ears ring for days
You could brainwash me and make me proper
I'd wear whatever you wanted
I'd wear your black eye
I'd wear nothing at all
The truth is I just want your hair
As symbolic as it may sound
Once I wanted to dye and cut and maim
My hair and my mom said it was psychosis
I think I just want your hair
To wrap around me to tie to trees
To inhale deeply
To exhale like a drag from a menthol cigarette
When you say you're quitting smoking
I think it's a trick
I think you're quitting me
I think I've lost my sheen
I think I'm not that nice-looking girl anymore
I think I need you all over again.
I am a twenty-three year old female from Queens, NY whose work has been published in Zygote In My Coffee, Silenced Press, Madswirl.com, Hipsterotica, Deconstruction Quarterly, The Common-Line Project, Best Lesbian Erotica 2007 (cleis press) and will appear in the future Zygote in My Coffee zine print edition of December 2007 as well as in Remark Magazine, Debris Magazine, Word Riot and Pink Elephants on Review.
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